Why?

I haven't been online much this weekend. Been too busy. Anyways, I was on Youtube.com and watching some interesting videos about anti depressants and babies born while Mom's are on them, particularly Effexor.

If you've ever spent a few minutes on youtube you'll notice that you can go from one type of video that you were originally looking for to another totally unrelated one. Almost like going on Google for something and trying to find one thing and getting a whole bunch of unrelated search stuff.

I saw this link of a beautiful little girl, reminded me of my own. Same color hair, same color eyes, etc. The video was a tribute to her and then I remembered that she had been abused and then murdered a few years ago. I had already started watching this video while realizing this. Then, they went into detail about how she died and I had to stop watching it. I started sobbing my eyes out, and trying to remember that she is with Jesus and praying her pain was only momentary. I was so disgusted!

There's only been one other time that I was so deeply effected and I think mostly it's because I try to avoid the abuse stuff, even though I worked with abused children for two years. I saw a little news clip and didn't really know what it was and then the anchor proceeded to detail one of the most gruesome abuse cases I'd ever heard. No warning, and I had no understanding of why they would even detail it on a news broadcast but, there it was. So detailed that as soon as I realized what I was hearing, it was too late.

I proceeded to sob for three hours, asking God why the kingdom of heaven(little children) are being hurt. Of course I know the answer but, I mourned that child as if it were my own family. I really think there needs to be a little more censorship on news broadcasts about sensitive topics. Especially since this is someone's child or family member.

Praying for little children tonight everywhere...