Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Summertime videos

Here are some low res Summertime videos from my camera phone.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GZopfiToGdw

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fBLF1azuQ8o

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kH4g0A-gJMM

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

I want off this rollercoaster....NOW

I know, I know the adage is "money makes the world go around". I'm so sick of worrying about money, worrying about debt, worrying about how I'm gonna pay bills, et al! I have never had money, I mean NEVER! My parents scraped by when I was little and then when they divorced we REALLY scraped by. I can remember a few times going without creature comforts like heat in the winter, etc. My parents never made a lot of money and were very working class. They didn't have a good business sense, or investment mindset. My Mother could make a dollar stretch and taught me properly but, she didn't know how to make her money bigger. My mama is an artist and had a cleaning business for awhile but, no business sense.


Fast forward to today where whatever I know has been self taught since I have no formal education after high school. I have learned a ton in the last year alone and yet, I feel I haven't even broken the ice. I'm frugal when I need to be but, my husband does a great job of spending what is left.(he is another story) I still don't really know how to invest and I get so confused and caught up in a few specifics about business that I'm not 100% sure what's gonna take off! Maybe I should take a business degree online so I can learn all about starting my own business. I know some people can sniff out a good opportunity and me, well I'm green to say the least.


The other side to this is the fact that I can't buy a house because I'm trying to pay off debt and am not making enough money. I'm trying to start some sort of business on a shoestring budget to make my financial situation better in the long run and so the cycle goes, around and around.


I just want off...I'm so weary of wondering where my next paycheck is going to take me. If we are going to be able to have any money left over or be in the hole. After putting up with it as a child and now into adult hood....well, yeah I'm just overwhelmed. Not to mention the fact that the very last thing on earth almost that I want to do is a budget(which I dont even do in my house) because I'm not a numbers gal if you catch my drift. Math was my worst subject and to this day, hate it. I took accounting in high school and didn't really do well in it at all. I'm just venting because I get discouraged. Gotta just pick myself up and dust myself off.

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

My First Diaper Cake





I ordered some supplies so that I could make a "prototype" if you will and am pretty pleased with this one overall...I have lots of ideas and really like the ones that are made to look like "fondant" iced cakes with the receiving blankets. I wanted to make one that was basically gender neutral so that someone could buy it as a gift. It's ingredients are a dozen bleached indian prefolds(diaper service quality), one babykicks hemp/organic cotton baby wipe, a 3 oz tube of Burt's Bees baby bee diaper ointment and an adorable Gund brand puppy dog.


Sunday, July 13, 2008

Kaia 9 months




















Wednesday, July 9, 2008

I used to be creative

I'm not sure exactly what happened to me. I can only speculate that getting married and having a child had something to do with it. You have less time, or you're tired and you want "me" time so the whole creative process goes out the window.

I have tried to cling to the days gone by where people spent time thinking of and even creating a gift for a loved one. I cherished hand made afghans and home made desserts from the plentiful produce grown in Oregon. I didn't have the patience to learn knitting or crocheting or even sewing really when I was younger, now I wish I could do even one of those things.

I learned to cross stitch by a co worker who practically forced it upon me while we took customer service calls...that was interesting! I was able to make some seriously beautiful things but, can't do it now, even if you paid me because it is really THAT tedious. I have created things here and there for people, some were nice, some were hideous. haha. Thanks to all the people that didn't throw the stuff away in front of me.

Lately I have missed having a creative outlet or even thinking about having one. I have written poetry since I can remember and I haven't had a creative spark, except for one poem, in a couple of years. What happened to the girl that had a creative outlet on a regular basis? I don't want to lose that woman. I don't want to lose myself in the mix of everyday life.

Part of the concepts I've been trying to create for a home based business have been creative. Can I just say that I LOVE etsy.com. Those women are seriously talented and can make just about anything the imagination can make. Their stuff is gorgeous and many items are completely affordable. I love that people haven't let things die like sewing, knitting, crocheting, etc. It's stupid but, it always gives me warm fuzzies and a feeling of home thinking about them.